I used to feel like I needed a bigger church, but behind that need was actually a more fundamental one: the need for a larger God. When my children left Mormonism, they somehow took with them my belief in the Heavenly Father that had been the center of our religious life. Regaining my spiritual footing has required a new kind of faith: a turning away from the confines of what I had been taught and toward what I have seen and lived for myself. In re-envisioning my God, I am reinventing my faith.